Thursday 24 January 2019

For: Dead End


Take care,
xImmortalMindsx

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Dead End

Losing the desire to design

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“The world can seem such a scary place” - booking.com, advert [2018-2019]

I'm not in a desigjjng mood, memory, anymore. I'm just lost.
Not a lost I've felt before. It's very new.

To say this, I have no desire to design anymore. Not out of fun. and , not out of a request for example.
Seems like, I have no idea how to establish this. And that is true.

For once. I feel no passion for it. Like, surrendering to world, that, clearly, may still, not understand crafts and arts.
If I'm not meant to see the past, then, there was no art movement. - [my view, situation]

I feel in my heart there is , and was (one). Was, for myself, apaperantly, I should not see the past, and see what is right now, in frnt of me.

Thinking of this, then, to me, this equals:-

-- I have no talent

-- I should not take hours out of my day, for a passion of mine

-- I should not see what is already there,

And all the truths, that is crashing.

Then,...what have I been designing for?
What were my lessons?.
I should not see them , as they are today. Like, the, past didn't exist. Didnt shape me…?

I'm having a crisis.
If I knew already, the CORRECT support, now, maybe, I would feel different.
But, as said, I'm not MEANT  to look at the past, and look at now, present. (If to say, I do/did both - past and present. It was exciting).

If this makes sense.
All these years, I've been teaching myself, how to draw, how to do this (techniques), and use that equipment, what works best for me.
But, now I'm not meant to see the past,.... (?).

These lessons do not matter.

The end.

***I'm going to say, this is my presonal view. Especially how, and of what the world, is showing me, giving me, telling me, etc. and as for understanding terms, during 2018 - 2019, - not everyone is like this. And that's it. The words use such as : some, a few, not that many, etc.***

I'm at a dead end.
All this work, for nothing.

xImmortalMindsx

The wording: "be careful, how you speak to people" come to mind. But, I do not know where it comes from. - crisis says, in past terms, 'it does not aply today'......

I get set, really easy, if someone is trying to teach me something, say something to me, etc., then I apply it to all the things, I can and should do. But, if I'm not meant to see the past, then all ttse sayings, "fables, and morals" do not exist.

If I find a way, to know, if these pharases, SHOULD be ...present (?), today. Then, I may start to feel a bit better.
Present says, "not likely". - reality, there is only 24hrs in one day. (Hinting: to learn (everything) in one day.). I now it's not possible, but ,(defence to this post, blog).

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Tuesday 1 January 2019

Lifestyle: Number 1

IMG: paint[link], 2[link], 0[link], 1[link], 9[link]

I wanted to write something, for the START of this New Year
 I was going to say, for the 'end of the year', however, it has already passed.

What can I say? What can I teach?
There is too many in my mind. And many scriptures I've read, that I wanted to share with you (but never know how/what/or which way).
Whether someone wants to believe in Christ or not, personally, I know it did happen.

One thing I know, each time I read, or look for scripture, to relate to what I think of, does happen in our days. And it broadens my mind a lot.

Whether to keep a sentence simple or not, to let you understand, does it really matter for you? (Saying nicely, before it may be mistaken).
Personally I've found keeping things, simple in these days helps. Whether I want to say many things, that may not make sense, is one of my chosen choices.
As they say, "broaden your volcabulary".
Featured on: [link], useful: [link]

I'm here, to tell you, this is me, my blog, and 2019 is here (in the UK).
This is, one piece, of my puzzle, to discover.

I have, plently niggly-bits (confusing bits, to explain) to discover, sort out, already-have-but-I-have-a-forgetful-mind,....

I want to chill (suffer with overworking and anixtey). Get sorted. And just rock-it (do what I like to do, slang)(main interest: "I mostly draw, hi").
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I am here to say to you the reader, what would you like to do?
What would you like to accomplish?
I'm saying this freely, through a broken mind (I have too many things up there, in my mind).
So, I hope you know (these questions), clearly more than me.

If not, then I would say, teach you (?), mention to you. It's just a journey.
As I've been saying this past year (2018), "as long as I have my own mind", nothing and no one, can deter it/change it, etc. Only add things to it.
If it makes, much, sense. Equals, ('=', I love to say), you can only learn. - relating to addition.
And anyone heading into it (-00:00)
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Take care anyway.
It being an hour later, after midnight....00:00. Haha.

xImmortalMindsx
(With edited+images: 02:46)