Alone Again,

We have our beliefs, we have our minds, a little crack, and it falls apart.

My nerves system, the memories in my head, I feel lost again, a mist covering the lines.

I'm alone again, I'm sad, I feel stuck. I want to shake the emotion away, but I wont stop, it needs to stop in my brain.
My brain is broken, trying to piece together something that once was there. I shall not give up. I know I'm there somewhere.

Help!

I'm so lost right now . So, much, feelings. So unstable. I CAN do this.

xImmortalMindsx

Lifestyle: “I TALK TO YOU…”

I was thinking of ‘Kelly Clarkson, Because Of You [LINK]’. **MAY BE TRIGGERING. VIEW AT YOUR OWN RISK. Haha.

FIG1: free snowflake gif [link], free blue ombre [link]

Anyway…

By this post (blog title), I've seen lately I'm more engaging audiences, and talking towards you, as the reader.

I honestly didn't realise the change, but, I did read (other blogs) and notice, it's more welcoming, natural, and relaxing.

As a blogger, - yeah, I know (person titled as) - it's a nice thing to see. As this is a “anything blog” (versatile as they call it), you, the reader, get to read parts of my life/thoughts/creations, etc. However with this, I'd like to hear your side too.

I love the interaction, of reading what your thoughts are on the blog post(s). It creates a conversation. And maybe, just collabing.

Example Post(s):

• Starting A Blog: A Tutorial, http://postingvprojects.blogspot.com/2015/07/title-of-blog.html
• COLLAB: CHRISTMAS DECORATIONS, http://postingvprojects.blogspot.com/2015/12/collab-christmas-decorations.html
• Collab: SPRING MEMORY, http://postingvprojects.blogspot.com/2016/03/collab-spring-memory.html

FIG2: my little pony fan art [link]

Anyway, you read this, and I read that. It's a happy feeling. Plus always, feel welcome on this blog.

This blog is a free read, and so is what I express here.

Take care,

xImmortalMindsx

Lifestyle: IF I WERE TO BLOG,

Update on SPOTLIGHT [link]. I've been listening to the Rooster Teeth's, and collab podcasts - **MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALL AGES.

They talk about what may be happening nowadays, things within the company, and just...anything.

*Latest post [link]

*For the past months, I was on work experience, at British Heart Foundation [link].
I haven't been able to post that much, due to the hours, and my health [link].

It did go really well. People are friendly, it helped create a routine, and I'm still figuring out, how to be open with colleagues, to managers, about my condition.

As some Readers will know, my dad passed away, of an heart attack, in 2010 [link].

So, I helped within the charity as much as I could, and I was grateful to help alongside their team. Thanks to them, and what they set to do.

Have there been anything you've been liking lately?

Feel free to share, within the comments section (below).
Thank you, and take care.

xImmortalMindsx

Subject: Cruelty-Free

I've been thinking about this for the past months/years (huff), and, to be honest...it's here!

Praising the companies who allow their products, to not be tested on animals, is a big step for them.
I don't mind if they're "well used". But they're past use, to tech and others' uses, is and should be a step towards not doing things to animals. Especially, for THEIR OWN benefit.

So, along with Izzy's post, http://izzykreviews.blogspot.co.uk/2016/07/beauty-brands-im-boycotting.html?m=1, I have been wanting to be aware, of product(s) testing. How, and what they use.

I do notice the cruelty-free logos, the declarations, and which companies who are going cruelty free. Plus, ones I thought were crulty free. I find it disappointing to view on the sites, they were not. My favourite...Rimmel. (For example).

I like their nail varnish, and I feel dreadful. It feels like putting animals blood on my own nails. Sounds dramatic. One reason (example), they test on animals, is so WE as HUMANS, don't get a reaction.

If us, as people, start being aware of cruelty free products, I'm guessing other companies will start to follow. We have the tech, and mind, not to treat animals in a certain way.

Isn't it time to break from the past...?

What's your thoughts on this? Does it bother you, or you are FINE with this?

Feel free to comment below this post.

USEFUL LINKS:
- http://izzykreviews.blogspot.co.uk/2016/07/beauty-brands-im-boycotting.html?m=1, **"The spark" of this post, conversation
- http://postingvprojects.blogspot.co.uk/2016/07/spotlight-things-worth-your-time.html?m=1, **featured post
- https://www.crueltyfreeinternational.org/LeapingBunny, **product seach
- http://www.leapingbunny.org/, **provides product info, search. **may not be compatible with mobile
- https://logicalharmony.net/cruelty-free-vegan-brand-list/, **product list
- http://www.bhcosmetics.com/shaaanxo-palette, **a product I could use, to share
- http://www.crueltyfreekitty.com/list-of-cruelty-free-brands/ **may not be compatible with mobile view
- http://features.peta.org/cruelty-free-company-search/index.aspx, **through product search, uses
- http://www.peta.org.uk/living/easy-way-go-cruelty-free/, **may have upsetting image(s)
- http://www.choosecrueltyfree.org.au, **WARNING: upsetting imagery
- https://www.fda.gov/Cosmetics/Labeling/Claims/ucm2005202.htm, **more explanation(s)

Take care,
xImmortalMindsx

Lifestyle: "PLOWING ON"

WARNING: May be triggering. Reading risk. Take care to anyone.

FIG1: http://www.publicdomainpictures.net/pictures/80000/nahled/meditation-1395091315fOg.jpg

Apart from the snow happening in US - hi to you, tc (take care), stay safe-, I wanted to share my day.

I had a rough day. Nothing to feel ashamed about, but of course, I felt, and feel stupid.

Today I missed a doctors appointment, I was late. Of course doctors have lives too. They didn't want to see me. So, i felt stupid. I cried, yes. I'm having trouble with time management, vs anxiety.

FIG2: https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIZGKYfSh5mFz_8ycCtTPgxoqbavf7sikZVwPO5asHAsrcNB3h65ra7PohqkkXQlEkU_ADBFw6rZt9P26nVe_YbuquUhV6KcHu7FKe9TfwU0Ou98bSTu33XRDQtDoJnGoFYeRvwJmMV0jA/s1600/overwhelmedOnly.jpg

I already found it difficult from the past weeks. It's an emotional time, not that it was expected. Anxiety is heightening, to where I take the chance, at using my own methods.

So, this post is weird. Although, it starts somewhere. The "plowing on" part, is to wait and take care, with what I'm able to do.
Keep moving - I did currently seek help, so gives a little relief. Now... I wait. **calm garden, meditation**.
Ha.

Take care, and feel free to comment your thoughts. Thank you so much for reading.

xImmortalMindsx

Design: Random Ideas/Searches

Search: 'dark red', (correction: 'green')

I thought I would share this. To share with you, and to help me for "reference"/ideas.

I should add why. 

- When I need a spark, an idea surge, I go to BING.COM mostly. Sometimes after one search, you come out with many.

Above started from 'green', ending with 'Lily...'. 

It helps me create a collage/'mood board', of the things I liked.

Take care, and feel free to search sometime. Even just for a fun, lil search.

xImmortalMindsx

Clothing: BOOHOO...

FIG1: Accessories [LINK]

For a LONG while now, I've admired Boohoo. There clothing is affordable, SO stylish, and everytime...there's something new (when I take a look). Although they've gotten popular, they deserve to be noticed by people.

Disclaimer:

I am not sponsored by this company. I have not brought any items from them ever (at the time, online transaction were considered really bad). 

Latest:

- Them Glasses, [LINK]

Feel free to comment, below this post.

Take care,

xImmortalMindsx

Blog: PLANNING

- Images

I was just looking at images right now, (a little a go) and it made me think of how I plan my images (design? Ha), to how I do my posts.

Right now, I choose to post what suits me, or would like to say in my blogs. Before, it was just a go with it, and plan and stick to each "list" I put.
Sometimes...that doesn't work. Not everything gets blogged - posted - and at most, it helps - to look at the list/past posts - to juice up ideas, or see what I could truly blog.

Be happy with what you blog.
This week, I got looking at my 'Stats', this thing on 'Blogger' that shows you your audience, popular posts, etc. - on mobile view, it helps know which post(s) DID well, not that it matters to me.
Expressed: "DID" because it's happy to see it.
I'm happy with each (post) at the moment.

Feel free to share what your best points for blogs are. Any tips?

POST RELATE:
- http://postingvprojects.blogspot.co.uk/2016/05/lifestyle-why-i-love-blogging.html?m=1, Lifestyle: WHY I LOVE BLOGGING
- http://postingvprojects.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/lifestyle-blog-design.html?m=1, Lifestyle: Blog Design
- http://postingvprojects.blogspot.co.uk/2015/07/title-of-blog.html?m=1, Starting A Blog: A Tutorial
- http://postingvprojects.blogspot.co.uk/2014/12/what-inspires-me.html?m=1, What Inspires Me...
- http://postingvprojects.blogspot.co.uk/2015/01/what-inspires-me-2.html?m=1, What Inspires Me 2

Take care,
xImmortalMindsx

Clothing: MY GO TO LOOK?

Happy International Women's Day!!

FIG1: LEGGINGS, JACKET, TOP, SHOES, SOCKS, SPOTS, STRIPES

FIG2: TSHIRT, TIGHTS, ACCESSORIES ("flower"), JACKET, SKIRT, SHOES

So today, I thought I would share, the look I mostly wear when I..just go out. AND my "wannabe" look. Enjoy!

Take care,
xImmortalMindsx

Suggestion?: DIARY CARRIER

Looking back on this post : [LINK], I realised I have a diary entry blog. - livingwritingandposting.blogspot.com.

FIG1: http://livingwritingandposting.blogspot.co.uk/2014/05/25-12-2004.html?m=1, http://livingwritingandposting.blogspot.co.uk/?m=1

I haven't really uploaded to it, due to not knowing how to showcase my entries right now. The entries,  I would like to take a picture, and upload a post, but of course I don't have good quality.
I want every post to be readable.

So, I'm asking for a suggestion. Either get a better camera, or "use this, it'll help" the ones I want to take (diary entry).

Idea Consideration:
- pages/written wording
- A5(?)-A4 size paper

Feel free to help. Thank you!

Take care,
xImmortalMindsx

Lifestyle: Words

In my lifetime, I've been the quiet one, and still am in my own way.

IMAGE: http://www.typoeffects.com/wp-content/uploads/frog_text.jpg

When it comes to pronouncing, or saying what I would like to say, it's not as clear as i would like it to be said. Even this gets run over many times (2-4 times) - Post.

I have a hard time expressing my words. I may have the sentence in my mind, but to say them aloud, is difficult mostly.
I do get mocked (even for my voice), it does hurt. But I always know it's not my fault.

IMAGE: http://www.publicdomainpictures.net/pictures/50000/velka/cat-head-scratch.jpg

I find it hard to process my mind, and mouth at the same time.

I honestly don't speak much, or, I chat too much. Ha.

It is something to learn, or as for some things, it's something I have to deal with, to accept...i honestly don't mind either.

Take care.
Thank you for reading,
xImmortalMindsx

Health: ANIXETY STOOOOP!

OK, so I got diagnosed late last year with anxiety. Of course I'm not happy, (no offense).

For the past weeks it's increased, as they say, "taken out of your comfort zone" - why am I doing this writing now...? Ha. Bizarre.
I hate it (anxiety).

So, the whole job looking from last post [LINK], I'm "bricking it", term for, " chickening out" = I'm so afraid.
Why am I afraid?
For my reports, I take a while to learn, but do things goodly.
I'm good with customers. I take tasks "by the hand"...but why am I so scared...?

I've been out of work for 2years now - I do get asked, - but all it was, was trying to deal/get to know my health. Simple, right...?

This post is not for just a read I'm guessing, but - another "but" - just an outlet.
Taking in mind of, "realness" and just "updating" you as a reader.
I want things to be welcoming here.
So, hi! **waves frantic**.

 Adding to the struggle, I hardly know where I am until I realise it, but that's just another problem.
I know when it's there in my mind, but it's HOW to get out of it.
I tried breathing tech today...didn't work, only short hand (term) though.

Whatever is going on up there - my mind -, it better stop. Lollz.
I'm loving what I'm doing now, but it's making me feel like I CANT do it. Yup, feels.
Way down, I CAN do it, but all this "bundle mess" just needs to go.
I'm so out of it - not what you're thinking, I hope.

Tc to you.
I'm still here...messing with stuff. Huff.

xImmortalMindsx

P.S - taking in mind, I'm honest about my health to managers, AND on my CVs' (applications). Best thing, is to always be honest on your health.
Half (companies/staff) already know what to do :)

Tc again.